One of my therapy assignments was to make a vision board. The process of making this was really fun. For once I wasn't over thinking and I just went along with what ideas came to mind. This board is very special to me because it is true to who I am, by creating this I'm taking back my life, and I can actuall…

My dream of being the Chick Fil-A cow has come true. Ever since I was 14 this has been on my bucket list. It was the week of Christmas and we were driving by the Orem location on state street and two workers dressed as cows were outside in the snow doing a cheer routine. It made my life and it sparked something deep …

I haven't posted a whole lot on here due to being extremely busy with work and school. Also I have been dealing with some other things. Despite all of the craziness and traumatic events that have taken place I can honestly say I love my life. I love who I am as a person, I love my friends, I love my family, a…

Years and years go by fast One second you're born the next you're dead Wanting every single moment to last Over time everyone occurs Sometimes it happens all at once You can't always predict what will happen next We just hope for the best People will be absolutely cruel They …

Sometimes I wish you could step into my shoes Maybe then you'll understand the pain you've caused Can't you see through my words I'm sending clues yet you don't even seem to understand anything Telling me you don't know why I'm mad Wanting to kill you for being an ass Don'…

Why go outside if it is bitter and cold? Loosely a rigid jacket hangs How can you be warm if there is noting to frame? Skin and bone dying from the cold Sickening yourself won't make the pain go away Tears flowing leaving restless eyes Cruel words refuse to leave your system All you see is …

Bruised and utterly weak. Unkind words have been spoken. Slowly going up the jagged peak, my heart was brutally broken. This person doesn't seem to care, filled with everything except for love. Every time you walk by I can't help but stare, when there's a push you tend to shove. Selfish a…

Feelings from the past somewhat seem to fade Feelings from the present strangely drift away New perspectives aren't seemed to be made Living in a warm but yet far away place The bitter cold doesn't take over anymore Annoying voices fade into the wind Nothing but silence fills my vibrant m…

I've been here too many times before Staring at the wall while crying on the bathroom floor Told you I was breakable Instead you started a fire and watched me fall Wanting to get up but stuck in a crawl Why come back if you're still lying Always lying A year has passed and my times was wasted Wishing I…

A simmering fall breeze is in the air Change is happening all around Within the trees and myself Considering all the greatness that has happened Anger has subsided Light begins to shine through the cracks Mending what was once broken Happiness lingers once more The changing leaves once up…

Walking around the once vibrant street The extravagant sun has returned, but there's a chill ache that remains. Moving forward from all that hurts, not wanting to say the final goodbye For once you actually care. You want a fun filled girl to be happy. But you aren't in the equation, this kills me. I…

Anxiety was filling my insides. I knew I had to tell him, but I didn't know how. Out of everyone, AJ was least likely to judge. Usually he was pretty chill about this stuff Finally someone who I feel I can trust, still who knows what's going to happen. His reaction could be unjust. I need to go up and…

Who are you to say what happened? You weren't there to hear what the quarreling was about. Of-course you stick with the enemy. Listen to my story before you go and call me crazy. If you are asking me the details, I will give you the naked truth. Don't interrupt me. You think the entire world revolves a…

I couldn't find the courage to say that, I simply have had enough. Bawling my eyes out continuously, has been exhausting. Turns out I'm not that tough. It's never okay to make a friend feel unwelcome. The fight him and I had crossed the line. Wasted my time and energy waiting. How would he feel if…

Looking around to see her beautiful face A girl so fair I can't help but stare Never thought to find someone this elegant Other girls couldn't possibly compare She is absolutely gorgeous Her eyes are bright and wide opened Having smooth, perfect, caramel hair

Stolen heart and a broken glass Falling hard is the worst Thought it would last My heart is solidly cursed Tried to love with all that I had Pieces of me shattering everywhere You think I'm terrible and bad This reality makes me sad Fighting to death Cutting you with the broken glass Wounds deeper than…

Sad and alone in the world. You keep wondering what went wrong, why are you always lifeless and cold? Maybe it's time you reevaluated your single song. You play games with our hearts. Our? Who else could I possibly talking about? How about you go and ask Josh, I bet Cassandra will fix everything.  Kept y…

Back in October my best friend's little sister Rylie took some awesome pictures for me. This photoshoot was such a monumental event for me since I haven't had any pictures taken since a lot of trauma happened in my life. I haven't had a one on one photoshoot since my senior year of high school. SO much ha…

Here is a video of me freaking out and laughing right after I broke The Car Wash at the Holiday Gas Station Last Saturday before my friends wedding. Last weekend was wild! Haha!

Olivia is now 3 months old and it is crazy! Time Flies when you are having fun man. If you can't already tell we are best friends and I love her so much. I sure didn't know what was coming for me when this little nugget was on her way. Also I am pretty sure I am already the favo…

In my communications class my professor had us write down our personal triggers, and she didn't specify that it could also be something positive, so I made a long list of what genuinely pisses me off and I think it would be funny to share. Along with that this time around I will also be sharing what makes me reall…

I have always been interested in writing since I could remember, so those close to me hearing I write poems didn't come as a surprise. I have been writing poems since I was 14, and least to say I have written a lot of them. Sharing any of my poems has always been out of my comfort zone and it took me years to even…

Friendship means nothing in your brainless mind, telling someone everything won't make you think twice. Having class together every day didn't shake your heart, helping you through everything when you were stuck in the dark. Becoming best friends shouldn't have been your intention, if you knew …

Two years old wanting to climb in a nearby fish tank, Getting a boost by a fellow friend. Fear filling the veins of a small child, Never wanting the exhilarating moment to end. Playing outside on a dirt grass hill Pondering what to imagine and what to play. Riding down the sidewalk on my big two wheel, …

I got a rock. A safe haven to sit on a smooth edge. Pondering the seasonal depression, contained in my 14 year-old life. Holding onto orange juice replicas, calming crystal rocks. Exposed to foreign remedies. An essence of peace withers, to the isolated ground. Songs fill a rambunctious class. Filing in an…

Fear runs through the veins of the people. Idly watching what is on the black picture box, listening to the cold screeches. War is what makes peace, but Peace could never make war. An innocent child playing in the hot sun, little does he know that danger is to come. Protesters scatter to end this tragic fire. …

My ears have a continuous ring of despair. I hear noise, but what are they saying? My chest is aching while my hearts keeps on breaking. Can it all just stop? Oh Wait, that would mean I’m dead. Tears fall for two hours and then my body feels cold. Where has all the sunshine gone? I’m stuck under a dark cloud of…

I think I really like it how you go and call me pretty. Turns out I’m better looking than the ones who say I’m shitty. What’s that? You say you don’t care about my past? Well that’s a first from someone who is new. Why would you want to hang out with the girl they all claim is fucking crazy?  Insecure tendencies…

Time is taking its sweet time erasing you. I wish I could wake up with amnesia. It would be nice to not have a fucking clue. Unfortunately life doesn't work like that. The horror of this "friendship", has been going on and off for six years. Damn. It's weird to say that time has slipped by. S…

In this post I am not really going into the detail of my two classes. I'm mainly going to talk about what happened after that. So that morning I had parked my car and rushed to find my first class, turns out I didn't pay attention to where I parked. I thought I knew where I had parked, but I had to learn this …

Life has been insane and I have kept forgetting to post whenever I have an idea. I tell myself I will remember, but nope it doesn't work like that. HA love how it is now September and I am talking about how my Summer went. Yep, that sums up my life. This past Summer was very unexpected, fun, amazing, healing, chal…

My dog is very moody and he doesn't take any crap haha! I tried to get him the dog nose challenge thing that has been going around and he refuses to do it and I think it's really funny.

It is about time I talk about what I love and dislike about both Utah and Arizona.  There probably a lot more than what is listed, but this is what I came up with for now.Note that this is solely my experience with the areas I have lived within the states.  ARIZONA  Palm Trees are amazing The heat sucks sometime…

All I have ever been in your eyes is crazy. Convinced that you know the first thing about me, guess what hon you don't. You say I can't function and that I am lazy, hate to break it to you, I work twice as hard as anyone my age. Threatening me with restraint was your first mistake. Assuming I was the ba…

For years now it hasn't been a secret that I struggle on a daily basis. From when i couldn't figure out how to open my locker in 9th grade, being clumsy as all get out, to forgetting a lot of important things, misunderstanding directions, getting lost for 3 hours driving around, and so much more! What just o…